i'm a pixel here, myself

I feel like my life is on hold while I search for jobs. I also feel like everything is crashing down around me, even though most of the things in my life are either holding steady or presenting new opportunities. I really, really miss the boy (should I start calling him the ex-boy?). I've put on weight and am not going to the gym enough. I'm just feeling pretty damn miserable and I don't even have the excuse of bad biorhythms to fall back on. I'm a big believer in things working out for the best in the long run, but sometimes the valleys on the way to the peaks are rather low.

I'm sorry that my journal of late has been so complaint-heavy, full of job angst, and generally nonfannish. Thank you all for putting up with me.**

In other news, I downloaded all the SPN eps I haven't seen, and since monkiedude said this most recent one wasn't show-mythology-heavy, I watched it. I have nothing but ( shallow commentary )

**I would lock this to comments, but I never do that in this journal. I'm not asking for sympathy; I'm just trying to get this all off my mind for however short a period of time I can manage.